Last evening…was an evening spent making BIG plans for the night…venturing out for a nice dinner to Greek Town to celebrate my roomie’s bro’s stay in Chicago…ooh…..U wish that plans would work out the way u desire them to be!!! Finally with every moment transitioning from dusk to night….the plan got sucked into a quicksand with a bunch of languid sloths burning their pockets for rounds of Texas Hold’em and listening to the chillin playlist…..that played just the right concoction of songs to suit the “Poker Mood”!!

Soon I was transitioned into 10years into my past when my ears widened to that of the size of an elephant with a song that I had not heard for years and a song that me and my sister used to wait for hours and hours to be played on “MTV or Vchannel”. Hoping that the song would be played on one of the music channels we used to flip channels at the speed of light….discouraging all our family members from gaining access to their favourite channels….those were the days when me and my second sister used to have our study schedules….when she used to coax me in taking 15minute naps with her….merely for the sake of company….so that she doesn’t feel guilty of not studying when I am……that inevitably used to extend to multiples of 15…60, 90,120 whatever!!! Those were the days when all 3 sisters….used to share the same bed….trying to create our own very niche that would extend to an inch more than the allotted space (on either side)….being the youngest of the three musketeers, I was bullied to sleep in the middle while both my thug sisters would sleep lavishly on either sides of the bed……those were the days when inexorably no matter how much space my eldest sister received on one side of the bed she would push me with the chain reaction of pushing my second sister yelling that “ I don’t have any space to sleep….my entire leg is out of the bed”…HAH…wake up to inspect and you would barely find her little toe peeping out of the bedsheet, leave alone the BED!!! Those were the days when life had not only made us walk on fire but also taught us to laugh it off for life’s ups are never appreciated without its counterpart “Downs”!!

Soon….the realization of having lost to my opponents caused my brain to twist a whole 360degrees to the year 2007….to touch base with the fact that time has flown rocket speed and that I should too, to retaliate for the transitioned moments!!!

Ignorance is Bliss…..is a statement that I truly long to apply in my life although its next to being impossible as that phase of life comes only once……Childhood!!!
Reading my sister’s blog on her childhood days this morning combined with the rain that almost drenched me transitioned me into a totally different world….that period of my life when everything was just what it was at face value….nothing intricate!!! Wish I had a time machine that would allow me to take a trip back to days of pure simple fun whenever nostalgia would cloud my mind.
Every summer during my schooling days I used to eagerly wait for the trip that me and my family would take to meet my grandparents in Trivandrum. The very moment with the onset of the train journey when I used to pester my father for cutlets and a steaming hot cup of filter coffee (every few minutes) which was a taboo by my mother for a lame reason that I would turn as dark as the coffee (yeah right)..…well she has the same ban for me now after 20 some years of my life…..to the very end of the journey culminating in my grandfather’s arms was an experience beyond words!! The rest of the days would just swish by with my grandfather trying to get me behave in his terms and conditions and me being the little one and the pampered would find ways to evade everything he would want me to do in a manner that would not offend him….although I would efficiently find time to nitpick to my grandpa about the deplorable nicknames my father used to address me just to irritate me…….so that he could be reprimanded……Hmmmmm…….those were the good old days of my life……
As and when a strong blow of rain intermingled with the wind shook me from one nostalgic moment….I immediately seeped into another one and another until I realized that I was the last one to hop off the bus…..my own sweet mirage being disillusioned with just one song crossing my mind….Koi Lauta de mere beete hue din(Someone return my sweet old days!)…….

Can people ever be content with what life has in store for them or will they constantly be on the lookout for something...that something which they themselves are unsure & unaware of, but there lingers a feeling that if that something is achieved then probably life will be/might be a shade better than what they already are experiencing!!
Week passes by and if I take a moment to quietly think of what has been achieved....on a smaller note...yeah I accomplished what I had planned for but on a larger picture....WHAT?? To me it seems like all of us behave like tuned puppets where we wake up to see the light of the day and no matter how we feel we begin the rigmarole by confronting people with an amicable behaviour and a pleasant face.....work to accomplish the unforeseen or for mere survival ….and by the end of daylight we are fatigued by the nitty gritties…compensate our tiredness with a little some entertainment to finally retire into a comfortable fulfilling sleep to rejuvenate for yet another monotonous schedule…..all this for what??? Are we truly heading in the right direction towards making a sensible contribution into the future which is yet to unfurl??
If I ask myself whether I am "CONTENT" with my life....my answer would be a vague…probably NOT….what is it that I am lacking.....I guess I don’t know and I wouldn’t know until "THE MOMENT" when what is lacking makes a surprise visit!!!
What is our ultimate goal in our lives? What are we thriving for? What meaning does this living have? Are we all here to fulfill some pre-set duties or are we here to decide our mission for ourselves?? Destiny…as most of us would like to designate for any bewildering moments….do we carve our own destiny or is it what we call an “Eyewash” where one feels victorious in having conquered the unconquerable while on the other hand destiny is just waiting to make us realize how foolish we were??!! While I am on a quest to find answers to these unsolved mysteries I leave you here for more intricate and intertwined thoughts to sprout!!!